Yesterday was one of those happy days.  well...it was happy for a little bit anyway.  My mom took Mike, Christian, and Me bowling. My mom had to drive mike and his bro because mike's car broke again.  i feel so bad for him.  but he thinks he's getting a new one so im really happy for him cuz he deserves a nice car.  He deserves nice things period. what's he doing with me...haha j/k. 

Bowling was fun though. My mom didnt stay with us (woot) so i got to bond with christian and spend time with mike which is always a plus.  I beat them both games!! and i got my high score of 120! go chelsea! ( i only beat mike by one point the second time but shhh.) the first time i kicked his butt! haha i love you darling. You're sucha good sport.  Mike was nice as always and bought us all pops and pizza.  After i was done kicking everyones butt my mom came and picked us back up.  haha but while we were waiting there was this annoying little kid that was swinging this long rubber thing around right next to us.  I thought i was going to get whacked in the face. Mike was protecting me though.

after my mom got us she took us over to the pet store by farmer jack.  SHe looked for things to get zoey and we petted the cats.  it's so cute that mike loves animals....especially cats. most guys dont like cats. he deffinently loves his.  there was this HUGE black cat that was really sweet. we both liked him...her. idk. lol. there was also a really cute puppy!  except he was mean and bit an old lady's hand and would let go. haha it was kinda funny tho. 

After that my mom took us (mainly for christian) to tacobell cuz he didnt eat at the alley.  then we drove over to mike's house and waited for his dad to arrive because i wasnt allowed over unless an adult was home ofcourse.  we just sat in the car and talked for about 1/2 hour till his dad came. so my mom dropped me off and iwas there for about an hour. but again, it was worth it.

mike and i went for a chilly walk outside to the swings by the lake...not too far from the house.  we swung for awhile and tried to reach the tree branches of a near by tree with our feet. we were very unsuccessful. hahah. then mike scared me because he went walking on the "frozen" lake. i was terrified he would fall in and i was convinced he would cuuz that's how i am.  He even stomped on it! i was so mad at him. mostly cuz i was scared tho. he came off tho unharmed. it WAS cold and windy so we took refuge behind a tree.  it worked cuz it blocked the wind. i had such a wonderful time just standing there talking to him. hahah "puh" omg. he makes me laugh so much. hehehe he's great. we dont get to hang out for great amounts of time like we would love...but we always make the most of our times together. it's really wonderful. i love it.

oh! and then heheh we did the spider on the swingset. i couldnt get my other leg in but he helped me. i have a bruise from the chain. grrr. it was fun tho. kissing and swinging. hehehe omg. then his dad called and said my mom was ther. when he stood up to get the phone out of his pocket he made me fall off his lap. so there i am hanging on to the cold chains with my butt near the ground and looking up at him trying to get him to help me up! but he's to busy laughing AT ME to HELP ME. so what do i do? i fall in the mud. he still didnt help me up. i forgive him...it was funny. i had such a great time though. i love doing stuff like that. we really just talked the whole time. it was wonderful. i love you!

ps. the title of the entry is a line in a song. i'll give you a piece of candy if you tell me the band and song.

much love,

chelseasue

i love my boyfriend. :)

Nothing much happened today. Which isnt necessarily a bad thing. This way, nothing BAD happened. Nothing GREAT happened either unfortunately. I'll be happy when this week is over. I havent slept well in a week or so. I wake up and im still exhausted. I get up, eat, go back to my room, and sleep till i make myself late for school. THat just makes me more irritated because i for some reason i need to get to school earlyish so i dont feel rushed and aggitated. I need to enjoy those few minutes with mike before i go to class.  Today i was really late and therefore, extremely irritated when i arrived. I got over it though. I was afraid i wouldnt be able to take my brit lit test in time. ha, it only took me 15 minutes. silly me; always the worrywort.  is it worrywort or worrywart...hmm. i dont feel like lookingit up so i guess i'll never know. Im worrying about tomorrow morning when i have to wake up and take the ACT.  But, this is my second time so it's not so bad. That doesnt stop me from being nervous. Plus, i dont know anyone that's going to Mott. I'll be utterly alone. ugh. with a side of ugh. and maybe i'll have waffles with a side of bacon in the morning...dad would like that.  I'd get my "protien" in. According to him i look anerexic and AM anerexic because im not eating. RIGHT. oh and that i've lost 7 pounds...but i've only lost 5. And i didnt eat anything for 3 days when i was sick. So im getting my appetite back and eating normally. So it's really sorta pissing me off. Especially when he's saying im anorexic in front of guests that come to the house. Nothing new though, im used to him being dissapointed in me. I just stopped trying to please him and please myself hoping he'd be happy for me one day....nope. huhhh its kinda a bit depressing that we dont get along. We did until i started having my OWN ideas and i didnt want him running my life anymore. But i can't stop that because im still a teen and under "his" roof. Somehow he always leaves mum out.

i guess i should go work out now...i'll only end up doing it anyway at 10pm if i try to put it off cuz they wont let me get out of it. and...i should do it anyway. Get stronger for college sball you know? no you probably dont. be glad. sometimes i wish i had a different life...but so does everyone else in the world. im not so special after all. haha. never will be...maybe to people i'll be special though...that'd be nice.

so long, farewell, i've come to say goodnight....

<3 chelseasue

  i used to hate being sick because i hated throwing up. Now, i hate it because i can't go to school and see my boyfriend and my friends. I really miss him...and im so very thankful i have him.  He loves taking care of me and making sure im alright. He talks to me about everything and i talk to him about everything. He's even made me a better person. He's made me a happier person. He even makes me feel gorgeous, beautiful, sexy...all those things. He gives me much needed confidence in myself which is really hard to do. I take my hat off to you sir. 

so incase you didnt catch it, i didnt go to school today cuz i am sick. and im cold. im tired. actually...i am exhausted.

i've been going to many many many softball camps out-of-state so i can be seen.  but...i need a break. I have to go to another one this weekend. I won't be ready because im sick and i can't practice. ofcourse, im sure my dad will have me go anyway. Then, i'll get sick again. i can't wait til all of this is over...

maybe; me and mike will go to the same college and maybe we'll stay together.  I can't get that thought out of my mind! it sounds so wonderful.  really really wonderful...i love him so much. 

and oopsie daisy. today is my fathers bday. i did not get him anything... ohhhh noooo. i should make him a card...yes. i guess i'll go do that. he'll probably tell me all wants is for me to go to college and work harder for it. cuz you know, im a total slacker.  on that happy note.

good day all.

much love,

chelseasue